Im so depressed that i cant pray or fast in these last few days, i know i can do ibadah in other ways but it's just not the same as standing up for prayer and feeling tranquility in sujud. I miss him too. :( I left him for Allah. Because i know that if he is the right for me, He will let him come back to me. :(
I dont know why, when my friends are just broke up or have fight with their bf/gf they always ask me to advice them, aku pon tak paham kenapa. they always ask me "ogy, mcm mana hang senang sangat move on ek?" haha! they doesn't know how struggle nya aku nak recover tu. it hurts u know. Ya, I've been dumped a few times in my life and it hurts. And I also did dump someone too. and it hurts jugak tau dak. haha! So, i know the feeling of being dumped and being a dumper.
so, in everything kita buat there must be a reason kan? in this case, kalau kita kena dump memang la kita marah kecewa semua tu kan? but, just think why this happen? we can't blame he/she saja. sometimes it comes from us too. even, u nak cakap yg dia tu yg gatal, curang dgn orang lain, hey, if u pandai jaga, dia tak kan lari punya. sometimes, kalau pandai jaga pon dia lari jgk. u know what this thing actually a test for u. sometimes Tuhan tu nak uji jugak kita. so, u need to accept and face this secara profesional la. sometimes, semua ni jadi sebab perasaan boring jgk. we cant deny this. theres must be a time u feel boring. but u can avoid this, u can control this if u love your relationship. u just try something new in your relationship, but if it cannot and doesn't work, yeaaaa it the time to end this. but u need to tell the truth. bukan main blah mcm tu ja. so the concept is kita kena memahami each other.
And for those yg kena dump tu yang asyik tanya mcm mana nak move tu....... simple je... forgive your ex and also yourself. seikhlas mungkin kalau boleh. baru la benda tu tak menghantui hidup hang lagi. haha! ya easy said than done. tapi kena la cuba dan paksa diri. takkan hang nak terus merana crying everyday, u need to move on! and and and the most important thing kalau dah break up tu dont ever stalk your ex ever again or u will hurt knowing that u are the only one who has not found someone new and u are the only one stalking and u are the only one who ends up crying your heart out at the end of the day. Pls laaaa..... just dont do things that will hurt yourself. If they wanna hurt u, it's their choice but YOU, DONT HURT YOURSELF.
There are some things in life we won't ever able to achieve. For example i will never be a professional guitarist no matter how diligently i train. I only know the basic chord. and i cant goreng the guitar like a pro bcos my fingers tak cukup lembut for that. haha! then i try playing ukulele. and i have one, my pink ukulele.
ya.. still i know the basic chord and i dont know how to petik this uku like a pro. i just dont have that talent. so i give up. haha! but this thing never let me down bcos i love music damn much. at least i know the basic so i can goreng anything jgk, huhu. just dont give up easily on thing yang u suka. u might fail the first time and need to start again. but most of the time, with the proper research, training and consistency, u can do what u set out to do if u really want to do it. Dont underestimate yourself. U can do just about anything u really want to do. No excuses. :)