But you are the unlucky person for having me in your life.

I'm sorry.

If u want anything just make du'a to Allah. Allah always listen. When we speak to Allah, we need to have strong heart that believes with firmness and confidence that Allah will grant us what we ask for. Sometimes, it takes time for us to see the fruits of our du'a. And in that we must be patient. So, never stop making du'a, u dont know where or when Allah will accept them and answer them. Dont underestimate His love to us. If Allah making u wait, then be prepared to receive more than what u asked for. Allah will gives u more than u have expected. If He doesn't answer your du'a, it maybe the thing u ask is not good for u, maybe He has a better plan for u. And one day u will wake up and thanks Allah for your unanswered du'a. :)

I dont know why, when my friends are just broke up or have fight with their bf/gf they always ask me to advice them, aku pon tak paham kenapa. they always ask me "ogy, mcm mana hang senang sangat move on ek?" haha! they doesn't know how struggle nya aku nak recover tu. it hurts u know. Ya, I've been dumped a few times in my life and it hurts. And I also did dump someone too. and it hurts jugak tau dak. haha! So, i know the feeling of being dumped and being a dumper. 

so, in everything kita buat there must be a reason kan? in this case, kalau kita kena dump memang la kita marah kecewa semua tu kan? but, just think why this happen? we can't blame he/she saja. sometimes it comes from us too. even, u nak cakap yg dia tu yg gatal, curang dgn orang lain, hey, if u pandai jaga, dia tak kan lari punya. sometimes, kalau pandai jaga pon dia lari jgk. u know what this thing actually a test for u. sometimes Tuhan tu nak uji jugak kita. so, u need to accept and face this secara profesional la. sometimes, semua ni jadi sebab perasaan boring jgk. we cant deny this. theres must be a time u feel boring. but u can avoid this, u can control this if u love your relationship. u just try something new in your relationship, but if it cannot and doesn't work, yeaaaa it the time to end this. but u need to tell the truth. bukan main blah mcm tu ja. so the concept is kita kena memahami each other. 

And for those yg kena dump tu yang asyik tanya mcm mana nak move tu....... simple je... forgive your ex and also yourself. seikhlas mungkin kalau boleh. baru la benda tu tak menghantui hidup hang lagi. haha! ya easy said than done. tapi kena la cuba dan paksa diri. takkan hang nak terus merana crying everyday, u need to move on! and and and the most important thing kalau dah break up tu dont ever stalk your ex ever again or u will hurt knowing that u are the only one who has not found someone new and u are the only one stalking and u are the only one who ends up crying your heart out at the end of the day. Pls laaaa..... just dont do things that will hurt yourself. If they wanna hurt u, it's their choice but YOU, DONT HURT YOURSELF.

There are some things in life we won't ever able to achieve. For example i will never be a professional guitarist no matter how diligently i train. I only know the basic chord. and i cant goreng the guitar like a pro bcos my fingers tak cukup lembut for that. haha! then i try playing ukulele. and i have one, my pink ukulele. 

ya.. still i know the basic chord and i dont know how to petik this uku like a pro. i just dont have that talent. so i give up. haha! but this thing never let me down bcos i love music damn much. at least i know the basic so i can goreng anything jgk, huhu. just dont give up easily on thing yang u suka. u might fail the first time and need to start again. but most of the time, with the proper research, training and consistency, u can do what u set out to do if u really want to do it. Dont underestimate yourself. U can do just about anything u really want to do. No excuses. :)

So. im short. really short. and im really insecure about it. u know, with my height of 144cm how can i find a boyfriend that sama level dgn i? haha! and i dont like short boys. just not my taste. (weh bajet mcm aku tinggi sangat nak boyfriend tinggi. haha) and now i know this one man with height of 188cm i guess. i dont know his real height. im just guessing. oh my god, can u imagine when i berdiri sebelah dia mcm mana? I kena langut sikit nak cakap dgn dia. hahahahaha. but, i think this is cute. whatever. haha

wow wow wow! 

time flies so fast. Im now 21 y/o. 

over the years i of course realized that this sense of starting a fresh was merely an illusion. January is not some magical month after which thing will change. Things generally stay the same and change if it happens, will happen when it is does. janji palsu je semua tu nak berazam baru bagai. haha! 

oh ya, now im 21 and hopefully i'll be more matured as my age. haha! or this is the time i need to find a boyfriend?? haha! oh no i dont want to make the same mistake twice. i always advice myself dont rush in relationship. i know this is the time i will be seeing everyone, my friends getting married and having babies. just ignore those! haha. trust that if it's meant to be that it will work out when it's supposed to. if u are rushing or pushing into something it will only end in frustration, probably tears. chill. so yeah i need to have more fun and cherish my 21!!!!!!!!