I feel so stupid of what i've done in the past. I spent one week cry every day on something that not worth for me. I didn't eat for a week. I tortured myself. I failed chemistry paper (my favorite subject). I didn't study. I keep crying. But thanks God I have my mom. That day she's calling me and asking me about my PLKN status and she hear my voice and she knew something is not okay with me. I cried so hard. And this is my first time I cried and I told everything to my mom. Then, she said "jaga solat, al quran jangan tinggal, and paling penting bangun tahajud, mintak la apa paon time tu, doa yg terbaik." and start from that day, I buat apa yang my mom suruh. And I rasa my life is getting better day by day. I can move on. I lebih semangat nak study and I feel like I mcm dilahirkan semula. I dont know where I got the strength. Alhamdulillah. My pointer on the second semester increase. But sadly I can't cover balik pointer sem 1, so my CGPA is not good but cukup makan. And then I got the offer to further my degree at unimap. I have no choice, I accepted the offer. dengan harapan I can start a new life there. I redha and just follow the flow, I believe Allah plans is the best.