Don't try to give me comfort words bcos it only makes the pain deep, may be in my case. Bcos everytime i feel sad or down I will find by myself how to motivate myself. yea,, it sounds selfish but i know myself very well. 

I just need a blank page, and I will write everything on it. That is the way I express my feeling, my sorrow, my frustration and everything that's disturbing me. I just hate telling people about my problems bcos I think people will be boring and can't understand my feeling. and the best way is I will find Allah. through my life experienced only He can give the unexpected gifts. Just dont ignore the five basics solah and du'a. :)