Sometimes I am too weak to stand the pain. I am too weak to reason and there are just not good enough and being only a human, I wish for them to at least it in their hearts to stop assuming the worst from me. I know it's my fault. And not 100% my fault. This thing wouldn't happened if both side are good enough to handle this. 

I am only human with sins bigger than any mountains visible to human eyes. Forgive me Ya Allah. Forgive me. Give me the strength to hold on to the only thing that's make sense right now. My faith in You. You know what is best for me and if the only way for me to deserve it is by facing all these, I accept it with open heart and mind.